Saturday, October 3, 2009

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[Get ready for rant-time. Fuck. This is my blog, bitch. I say what I want for however long I want to say it...]

Just when you think you know someone. I can’t believe he would stoop so low. But then again, she obviously takes an interest in him and he’s nice to her. Someone [let's call him Valjon] at work today told me that  he knew what was up. So Valjon proceeded to tell me that one of my best friends was spreading a rumor about a new coworker. She came to me earlier to talk to me about the rumor and that it wasn’t true but she wouldn’t tell me who was spreading it. I hoped to God that it wasn’t him. But alas, apparently it was. Valjon told me that he knew I liked BlueCar and BlueCar probably has an interest in me but he begged me.. begged me  not to start anything because he said that I deserved better and that BlueCar was just playing games with my heart  to – put it verbatim, “egging me on”. It sort of feels that way. I mean, he already has a girlfriend and it just feels like he likes to play around with people. Humility, my love. Learn that lesson and we’ll talk just fine again. I’m done with people treating me like shit. Like a new toy that he can just toss aside because he found something better to play with. I’m finished. I’m done caring so much about someone that doesn’t give a rat’s ass about me. “Treat people the way you want to be treated”, right? Well, that sort of isn’t working out for me. Hell, I’ll still be a fucking ray of sunshine because that’s what I am. It’s in my nature. But when people start using me and playing games with my heart and mind… that shit is just not gonna work. I trust no one because no one has proven themselves to be worthy of trust. Treat me like a fucking human being and not just a piece of talented ass. Please. If all guys are like this, then fuck being straight. Francis was right – I should probably consider going lesbo. In the back of my mind, I always thought I was bi… but no. I had too much faith in the penis. Time to live life for my family and myself once again. Lovely.

In other news, went ice skating this morning and my legs hurt like no other. That’s about it. I don’t really feel like blogging anymore. I’m a bit pissed at mankind… or a single man…that doesn’t seem to be too kind at the moment.

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