So the drama is over. Ryan and I are no more, and instead of feeling sad this morning I feel more relieved than anything else. The relationship was very one way and was very draining. With school break ending on Monday, I decided that I would have a nice long weekend of no work. I don’t go back until Monday afternoon. I am back to my 20 hour a week job and I am excited about going back to school and seeing my friends who have gone on vacation for most of the holiday. Tomorrow I have one of my friends Emma coming over and we are just going to veg all day!
Today I woke up not really all the horny. It’s probably the first time in a while that I didn’t masturbate first thing in the morning. I went downstairs and had some breakfast, and decided to polish my nails. I know most of you are thinking this is boring as hell, well this is my life, it’s not all rainbows and unicorns as my friend says. I decided to go festive and did red nails with white stripes, still in a festive mood I guess. After that I went up and shaved my legs. At that point I felt I deserved an orgasm and a scooted my butt so that the faucet was shooting right on my clit, leaned back, thought of one particular facebook friend (that I admire quietly through a series of pokes) and came nice and hard.
With that business out-of-the-way, I shaved myself, only cutting myself once on my knee. Decided I still like the landing strip so I shaved around it. Toweled off, put on some really sexy lingerie, that I had bought a few weeks ago but never wore, a pink and black lacy bra, black blouse, pink short skirt, boring white panties but these pink and knee high socks. I took myself to Kohls and blew through my gift certificate as I counted no less than three older men actually follow me around the store (a little creepy, although I know they just wanted a peek of me).
I picked up a new purse and wallet, a pair of pink Vans, a sweater, and a scarf. I know,I know, no fun stuff, but I think Kohl’s underwear selection is kind of boring. I headed back home and chilled out with my mom and my brother’s girlfriend. After we finished the movie, I went up to my room and hopped on Facebook to do some flirting 
Only to find one of my friends picture’s is popping up all over Facebook as fraud “lesbians” who are really men. I felt horrible for her. It’s such an invasion of privacy.
I was going to leave a long post about fraud on Facebook, but I think everyone’s aware of it. I just wonder if the guys who do it truly understand how difficult it is to come to terms with being bi or gay for that matter. Look at me, I am terrified to come out of the closet, I am still afraid someone will find this blog from school or my profile on Facebook and blast me at school because I’m different. There are some girls on facebook that I know are real, there are some I think are real and all others will be purged soon.
One of the reasons I started this blog was to slowly come out of the closet and see what it’s like to not worry what others will think of me being bi. As much as guys want a girl who is bi, I’ll still be considered a freak. I don’t even want to think about the girls that will probably avoid me in the locker room or just stay away from me period. It’s very stressful, especially since I want a girlfriend now more than ever and I don’t know how to go about it without completely coming out. With only half a year of high school left I just don’t want to risk it. So I just dream of my Facebook girls and chat with them and maybe sometime I will meet one.
Goodnight my friends
love and kisses,
Cassie
Any girls want a naughty girlfriend?
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